03.08.2026

i'm just not feeling too good lately. i kind of wish people would ask me more often how i'm doing because i do want to talk about how i feel, at the same time i understand why they don't do it. it's a lot of effort for everyone and god knows i can't ask all my friends how they are either. i struggle being there for everyone all the time, so i shouldn't expect people to reach out to me either. it just gets a bit hard sometimes.

recently saw a tiktok where someone said they always feel like the weird little cousin in any social situation and i relate to that so much. i know it's not true but i can't help but still feel like within a friend group, i'm just not all that important. people like me for my cats or my apartment, i rarely feel like people like me for me. i kinda wonder if people would still want to hang out with me if i had a smaller space and no cats. probably yes but it's times like these where i feel like people maybe don't actually want to hang out with me. i'm kind of quiet and when i'm not quiet i'm kind of annoying really. i wouldn't want to hang out with me either.

on a positive note, i managed to get the site working on firefox. hi firefox people.

01.08.2026

i handed my thesis in. i'm basically done with everything now. i'm so happy.

f and i watched spiderman double feature today. a way home and brand new day. it was really fun i have to admit. i thought it was gonna be marvelslop again, but it wasn't. i enjoyed it a lot. even though a way home was kind of fan-servicey. even then the movie was really fun.

30.07.2026

god, todays already been a great start to the day, hasn't it? missed a meeting, my teammates missed it too and we got in trouble. now one of them is acting, like it's our fault. she wasn't there either, by the way. people annoy me.

i just don't understand why we can't communicate like adults. they treat me like a child and as if i'm stupid. i'm glad when this is over.

29.07.2026

hi. i've finally gotten to continue this. what a hassle... this design is provisiary, until i figure out something a little nicer. thank you vitya for letting me steal your code for this.

it's been a lot lately. i've actually finished my thesis. yaaaaay me. it was exhausting. i'm glad all of it is over. i don't know, i kind of want to be happy but i just don't feel very happy. i guess it's a bit weird. i'm in a weird mental spot atm. just hoping it gets better.

also for some reason, this website doesn't wanna work on firefox. sorry firefox people xoxo